Plain Conscience

Marah berarti mbuat qt "rusak" scr mental/rohani.
"Jangan marah" bukan berarti qt harus hilangkan sifat tdk dpt marah.
"Jangan" ini harus diterapkan slama hari2 ksulitan n ktidakpastian qt, persis spt saat2 qt alami hari damai.

Berdiam diri di hadapan Tuhan dan nantikanlah Dia
Mazmur 37:7
Bergantunglah pd Tuhan, jgn dikendalikan oleh situasi.
Karena tiap bntuk kcemasan dn kemarahan yg mnyangkut diri sndiri adl dosa, yg disebabkan oleh perencanaan tanpa Allah.
"Tinggallah di bawah naungan Yang MahaKuasa" ^^

To take the leap of faith isn't about
Mendapat suatu tendangan lalu harus cepat2
Bergegas dn bertindak
tapi harus tenang dulu dn mengenali keyakinan dalam diri

Yang berarti...
Keyakinan yg dari Tuhan dan kebenaranNya

Is the decision right exactly
not just a deep feeling or explotion
Nor just a should be theory
But comes from a plain conscience
A faithful heart
That pour like a fresh water
Give wisdom and peaceful mind, soul, and heart

Now all I can do is keep believing and stand before Him
Keep giving love with all of my heart
^^
Giving and not hope getting back
It's an agape love

For I believe..and still believe deep in my heart
Even my brain keep refuse it
I believe
Love has find me
Love stays inside
He will find me
And I am just stay right here..

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12:14

hanging over

Sometimes I feel like I don’t know
Sometimes I feel like checkin’ out

I tell my self
Oh sugar, don’t you cry
Oh dear, wipe the tears from your eyes
You know He need you to be strong
And keep faithful while the day is as dark as the night is long

I’m in the black, can’t see or be seen
Feel like trash, but love make me feel clean
Ur love is a light in the middle of darkness inside me
a little pieces of hope

You bury your treasure
Where it can’t be found
But your love is like a secret
That’s been passed around

There is a silence that comes between us
Where i couldn't sleep
Thinking of the price of love

All I could remember about u
Is ur laugh and sweet ⌣̈ smileeee ⌣̈ everything u did

Now I try so hard to pretending that
I am not having those sweet memories

In whispers and moans
When I was all messed up
And I had opera in my head

Your love was a light bulb
Hanging over my bed
Deep inside longing to see you
So sure that u are always there
So close
For I can lay my head on ur shoulder
hug me like u always did

I was in the black, can’t see or be seen
I reminding myself
Like a codein
Decompress my soul
That time would never come
It's all over now
In whispers and moans
When I was all messed up

I hope I get it wrong
Can’t always be strong

But still I had opera in my head
It is beautiful ^^
It is a joyfull feelings
Inceptions different forms
Show it in the different acts

Light bulb hanging over me
May be its just a fatamorgana
And dreaming in limbo

~M♥i°"̮ and Ultraviolet U2

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00:01

PARADOKS

love is something make me feel..

pain and hurt

cause it's growing bigger

and its not fit with my little heart

happy and joyfull

cause it's growing deeply

and i found there's a spring for me to drink

makes me healthy

nervous

cause it's alive

strong and powerfull

cause i get fresh air everyday

to take a deep breathe

hot and cold

cause the weather and season changes

make me get sweat and freezing

at the same time

inside my heart

like am dying

cause it's cuts off the old part of mine

cut off

egoism, individualism, madness, traumatic experiences, sadness,

envy, badness, doing evil things..

for the promises of new beautiful part

wait so long and learn to be patient

for LOVE is growing now..

and it takes time to see what happens to me

in the future

when LOVE is growing inside me

Love that U give to me

hurt me soo much

freed me from my sin

toar my soul

toar my heart into pieces

like a boom

like a knife..cutting and cleaning

give me freedom

give me joy

i am crying while i am laughing

i am whimper while i feel that kind of joy and thankfullness

Love that comes from U

to love U

to love him

to love others

I surrender all

for i am dying

and become smaller

everyday

at the same time

i am alive

before U

only for YOU

"if You love and treated all Ur bestfriend like this,

i'm not sirprised if U have many enemies"

Teresa, 16th century

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14:30